I have long accepted where I am in your world and that what we had was a wonderful memory that only you and I could share…
Even if you and me consisted in a small bubble that contained just the two of us, I think to a certain extent, you showed me that I should love myself first in times where in I could not do it for myself…
Yes, it may have felt that you weren’t worth the hassle and time but I guess to a certain extent you were well worth all the lessons I’ve gained in life, learning and loving others as well as myself.
You may have meant it or not, the life lessons I’ve learned in love and intimacy could never have been realized if it were not for you… If you had not shook my world that way.
I still think about it though, how your stare touched my skin… how I lit up when I told you my stories and how you made me feel that I could defy my own limits.
It felt surreal but it was what I needed to learn how to love myself, and at the end of the day, even if you meant it or not, you lead me to believe that who I am was a pretty good picture to get everything that I wanted.
I always wondered how it would be like if you took that adventure with me… I never hated her for being the one to settle you down… Deep inside I’m really thankful that she is there for you and that you were man enough not to include me in your confused path…
I think that was the only way you could have showed me how you cared about me… delusional as it sounds I think I’m sticking with this theory. And that’s how I can bear going through the next chapter of my life… with the idea that who I am is good enough to let go of someone like you…
Thanks for the ride old man… take care always
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