and there he was right in front of me in the dark…
I couldn't see his face but I knew that he was staring at me very intently… I could feel how much he wanted to say it...
at the same time how much he wanted to keep to it himself; the things that would make our relationship impossible…
“kung alam mo lang nins, grabe , nirerespeto kita”
he told me that a good two to three times over…
I felt relieved, I knew I should stay away, but at least now I know that I can linger with out having to deal with anymore emotional hassles with him…
I like him, but he wasn’t you…
he was my guitar boy… I bid him goodbye telling him that I wont wait…
It was only fair for we both knew I had nothing to wait for…
I told him to let me go as a lover and keep me as a friend...
deep inside I wish we could be more, but this time I know how to keep my distance by being within a fairly short vicinity from where he was, as long as we would remain just as friends I think we will be fine…
I think he’s trying to keep his promise, he’s still my friend but he’s not as present as he has been for the past few weeks…
It was a perfect goodbye… it almost makes me want to bid you farewell one more time… but I don’t know if I’m just quite ready to admit that its going to be really over after that…
