I've been watching sex and the city all over again with hana lately since there really isn't anything much to do with bumhood except for filling myself up with TV series, so I can relive my life vicariously through what i can watch depending on my mood and my whim...
I don't know if its the bumhood, me being single, our last conversation or the three years I've had with you that got me thinking about this particular part of sex and the city...
I've always found myself fixated on the character of Carrie in sex and the city, coz just like her, I have an emotionally unattached man in my life that I've been crazy for ever since we started going out.
I don't know if i can be Carrie, coz to tell you the truth no matter how much of an ass Mr. Big was to carrie, the time they spent together was much more than what we ever had.
Just like you, Mr. Big also had no intentions of hurting Carrie, but big was different in getting himself involved rather than playing safe and keeping a safe distance... and true to form, like the any male protagonist in any chick flick or modern TV series, he did let the girl down more than once...
And he hurt her like no one else did in her entire life.
Honestly I don't really care for the drama of it all, but something draws me to the scenario coz no matter how he hurt her, at least he tried to show her that despite his being a typical stupid man, he wanted to love her.
I wouldn't know what our relationship is because I guess we never really tried at it to begin with...
Even if our love affair would be one that ends in disaster, lets say if you end up settling for a "simpler" option, I wanted to be the girl to say "your girl is lovely hubble" and live with the satisfaction that the complicated passionate love affair had actually taken place and was once too much to handle...
its slowly becoming more real to me though, how the romantic notion in my head is simply what i wanted things to be rather than what you actually had to offer; which was more convenient for you rather than for me.
and with that i guess I'm upping the stakes...
the last time you talked to me, you subtly asked me if I was willing to be complicated...
I guess I still am a little wiling to sign up for that, but you have to know that you are signing up with the carrie katie experience... and once you don't get it, then I guess there goes us...
that's my last offer and if you cant take that then you have to tell me to let go, coz i deserve a happy ending, even if its 26 me being katie, telling hubble that the girl he's settling for is lovely...
so what do you say? drinks to talk about the final stakes?
call me
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